Lost

I feel so lost and like a complete failure.

I live paycheck to paycheck, hoping that the next one brings in enough money to pay for rent, bills, gas & little things that I need.

I've been single for 4+ years. I had a date two weeks ago. It was amazing and we enjoyed every moment together. Then he went from blowing up my phone to hardly ever talking to me after it was all over. I was so happy; now I spend every night in tears and the ladies I work with have noticed a significant change in me. I hardly smile or laugh anymore. I have to force myself to get out of bed every morning. Last night I did what I haven't done in over 4 years and that was drink until I passed out. I've hit that level of depression that I hoped I would never hit again in my life.

And this is why I feel like a complete failure.

I'm so lost on where to go from here.